...Kenjo ~ Xiiao Koek Life...

Back to my blog once again le...

2007-07-21T04:22:00.000+08:00

Once again, i'm back to my blog again...

haven't been posting these few days cause i'm busy with my work, schoolwork, as well as bros...

But these few days i enjoy my bros company... having fun as well as fights... but then, i still wish that i've a gf who can care for me and show me concern... hope there is a average girl looking out there love someone like me... but its alright, shall nt talk about it... anyway, today i spar with a guy with fighting...

then, before i even know it started, he came and keep on kicking me... then i block him in a wrong way resulting in my left hands swollen and i can't do anything about it... but i guess no choice ba... hope it will almost recover by sunday cause i got work on sunday...

and now 3 of my bros are sleeping in my room... sad lei, cause i got no whr to sleep... but its alright, let them sleep in peace... then later going out with them to play dota which i'm poor at...

alright le, shall write till here... will be posting again tomorrow...

I'm single again...

2007-07-16T07:03:00.000+08:00

I'm single again...

My gf have break up with me ytd... Its alright, i accept her decision as well as repect it... But then i really am feeling sad actually & really feel like crying... But then no tears really want to come out... I'm fine, and i still hang out with my grps of friends and go play together... I love their company... But then the presence that she used to give me still lingers.... And i feel like i've become a change person le... She say that we belong to 2 different world... And she prefer bad guys... Then i think i have make the wrong thing to become someone good... i should become someone bad... Then i think i shall be the person who is bad... This is a childish thing to do but then i've set my mind le...

i shall not talking about me and my ex-gf things le... But then i don have the mood to talk about any other things right now le... I shall post again tomorrow ba...

I miss my dear laopo...

2007-07-13T01:41:00.001+08:00

I jux came back from work not long ago only and now is already 1:30am...

Hmm, today my work seems boring cause got not much customers today... So i'm actually slacking more than working... But then having fun with my colleuges and one of my classmate... Then on my way home, someone came to my mind right after my work... And thats my dear laopo... Miss her alot, donno what she is doing during that point in time... Must be slacking with her friends for sure... Thats her daily routine... ^^ But then i miss her alot thats for sure...

Luckily tomorrow i'm able to find her... Then will be able to see her face and able to touch her hands... And later will be my submission of my report man... And i have yet to complete even one of them... This is terrible... I guess i have to do it soon, if not, not jux i'm the only person who die, but also all my teammates in my grp will die cause all of them didn't do and are waiting for me to finish it...

Wat an idiot they are... But then no choice, still have to do it although one of the report belongs to the most difficult one... All the best to me... Alright le, i shall post again tomorrow...

Not a good day...

2007-07-11T09:57:00.000+08:00

Ytd wasn't a good day at all...

Cause ytd my gf father have seen her talking to the police and his dad has told his mum about everything... This makes her mood no good... But then the most worst case is that ytd me and my gf had a quarrel over something... Its about my friendster things... I have added one of her close friends which she really don like... I know its my fault dear, please forgive me... I really didn't even talk to the girl in msn or friendster... Ytd when we quarrel, she jux didn't really reply my msg and hanged up my call... Does she knows how much she has in my heart...

She really means alot to me... I don't know how to express it, but then ytd after she say all those things, i feel like i'm no difference from her ex-bf... I want her to know i am totally not like her ex-bf... I really care for her, i really wish she can be by my side, i really need her only and no one else... Must be a stupid things to write out all these when i know she isn't reading it... But then ytd i'm really sad, no mood to work... Does she knows i won't anyhow find other girls... Does she trust me... Now she jux treats me coldly... Although i didn't drop any tears, but my heart feel discomfort and pain... I am true about her as well as this relationship, i don wish it to end...

Alright le, i don wish to continue le... Not in the mood right now le... Shall post again tomorrow...

Lots of things happen ytd...

2007-07-10T09:48:00.000+08:00

Lots of things happen ytd...
firstly is my work... At first my work goes smoothly, until my manager give me a task of opening bottle of white wine and serve the customers... Thats the first time i do so i don't even know how to do... Then my manager show me how to do... In the process, i learn and also i make alot of minor mistakes and cause a laughing stock to my other manager... Wat a pain...

Then another bad thing happens to my gf... She was caught by the police for smoking at the non-smoking area... Actually the police isn't here by luck, but actually they are here cause my gf friend's friend mother call up one... Then that mother talk alot of craps to my gf and even say things which she and i don even like to hear... One day i swear i going to find problem with her... That old lady better watch out for saying all those things to my gf... As long as i am by her side, no one can ever thinks that she is that kind of person...

And i didn't post any ytd cause i'm working and i'm beat... I miss my gf alot sia.... But no choice, she is working right now... And after she is off from her work, comes my work again... But luckily tomorrow there isn't any work for me, so i can go and find my gf... Hmm, looking forward towards tomorrow...

Alright le, i shall post again tomorrow if possible... Take care all, and my laopo.... Xiiaokoek miss u dear...

Sian, going to work later...

2007-07-08T13:53:00.000+08:00

Boring...

later going to work later... I miss my dear laopo... Later can meet her le... For awhile only cause i still need to go to work... then no choice... Today she is studying wor... Don't know how much she can study... But then all the best to her studies... Must work hard hor...

Ytd i really enjoy the company of my laopo... She and i go meet her cousin and her gf... Then upon entering the shop which her cousin gf works, she and her cousin gf try all kinds of sexy clothes... Then my face was =.='''.... Then my gf ask me wat if she wear those and go out shopping, then i say i can assure her that she will kena tio gan by me and kena beat by me... But then i believe she won't anyhow wear one... Then we keep on de siao each other... This is lame i know but then ytd is the first day she really beat me lei... Haha, i am so happy that she beat me... I must be crazy, but i rather she show her real behaviour to me which i really like... I love her real much, although she might not believe what i say, but then i still will say it... And time will show how much i love u... We will walk together and see the result together, hands hold together and never let go...

Alright le, i have to go le... Shall post again tomorrow, thx for yr tagged dear, i miss u...

I am sick today...

2007-07-07T14:04:00.000+08:00

Today i'm feeling sick...
My head feels quite heavy, i think i going to have a fever soon le... So i have been drinking lots of water today... hope i will be fine later or latest by tomorrow...

But i am happy cause later can meet my laopo cass... she must be naughty today cause slacking all along... Later i beat u then u know... Joking only, i don bear to beat u one... I still want u to be with my along always... Must be lame but its truth... Hmm, tomorrow still got work which i feel quite bored cause tomorrow my friend isn't working and left me and some colleuges which i don't know them too well yet... But most importantly, hope i don't make any serious mistakes again... All the best to me...

Later my gf coming my house and i think the first thing she is going to do is to sleep... She is such a lazy bum, opps... No la, i can see that she is always tired one... Cause she have work early in the morning and she always sleep so late...

Hmm, shall post again tomorrow... All the best for you all...

I'm starting to feel sick today...

2007-07-06T18:29:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to feel sick today...

i'm having a sort throat and i feel my body temperature is quite hot today... But its alright, i think i lack of rest due to working and studying which causes me lack of sleep... But i am happy cause later i'm meeting my gf le... Its like a sudden when we both knew each other... Maybe this is call fate ba... And i didn't know we both have so much in common... Enjoy being by her side... And i feel that she is not a bad girl, even if she is fierce, i know she have a kind person in herself... Its jux tat no one try to understand how she feels, and i'm here to fulfilled her needs... I won't leave her, thats a deal i made to myself...

Although we do not know each other for long, but somehow we have alot of things to say... My feelings right can't really used words to describe how i feel, but then i know u understand wat i'm trying to say... Thx for being by my side, in return, i will give u my life of companion as long as u don find it disgusting... Don't ever feel lonely, sad or despair, cause thats the last thing i wanted to see from yr face... May u be blessed with happiness and freedom and i will be there to guide u along, always... I love u my dear, Cassandra...

Hmm, alright le... i shall post again tomorrow... Thx people for yr tagged and all the best to all of u...

Sorry for not posting these few days...

2007-07-05T17:00:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry that i didn't post anything for these few days...

Cause i have found a work and i'm, currently working as a waiter at clack quay near M.O.S there... Then i find the work there quite stressing but then i still manage to do it... However, on the first day of my work, my 2 boss come in and have their meal... And to my surprise, i drop the knife on one of my boss hands and the other forks drop on my other boss floor... This is very terrible... But then instead of them scolding me, they taught me the correct way of doing things... And after that incident, i tell myself that i will not make the same old mistakes again...

Then on the second day of my work, i feel much more easier to work... No as much stress as my first day of work... And i enough the company of my manager and my collegues... The place that i work in is a italian restruant... They sell all kind of italian food... And the food is quite nice... U all can come and try out the food there... The restruant name is call Via Veneto...

Although i enjoy my work, but its damn tiring as my work starts at 6pm and ends at 12am... And i still have school on the next day early in the morning... But nvm, nothing comes easily in life... So i will work hard in everything i do... All the best to me... Alright le, i shall post again tomorrow... And this sunday i have to work again... Sian...

Sian... Sian... Sian...

2007-07-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

Wat a boring day...

My parent have gone out to malaysia for one day... And my younger sis go for her chalet... Which makes me the only person left at home... And i didn't find anyone who is free who can go out with me... And i have been rotting at home for the whole day... Whats more boring can it be...

Then tomorrow meeting with my bros also have been cancel which makes my day no sense of direction le... I don't know what to do... Its really irritating when u have lots of time and don't have things to do... Oh well, anyway, these 2 days have nothing much to post... I'm still living as i have always done...

And thx ppl for tagging me once again... And thx for yr care and concern... I'm not sad at all, don't worry about me... And take care my friends...

Shall post again tomorrow, now continue with my boring day le...

Boring Day...

2007-06-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

Here is another post right after i came home...

Today's paper is quite easy for me... So i finished my paper in 45mins... Then right after my test, i go out with one of my classmates to causeway point to wait for his gf to go and watch movie together... But his gf is taking such a long time... I finished my games in the arcade and even stay there for around 45mins... His gf still haven't reached yet... Then i got no choice but to wait for her to come...

Then at last when she arrive we manage to watch the movie... The movie we watch is call Transformers... Might sound like childish but then after i watched it, i find it that the graphics they have done is so nice... Then after watched finished, we head down to yishun for my friend to send his gf for work as well as for us to play pool ... And i lose 4 straight rounds to my friend... i don't even know what i am doing today... Juz feel boring when i see other people have a gf by their side and i feel left out... But its alright, i am used to it le...

Shall post again tomorrow ba... today there isn't much things for me to write anymore... I shall take my rest too le...

Last Paper For My Common Test...

2007-06-29T03:39:00.001+08:00

Its now 3:38am and i'm not sleeping yet...

cause i'm studying for my test later on at 8:30am... Then i didn't post for ytd is because i'm outside and reach home quite late and my sis is using the computer so i can't post...

And my girlfriend & I have break up... She ask for the break de... Although it hurts, but then i won't let this feelings stays continuously... Cause there are other things in life which i am also pursuiting for... Relationship is jux a part of my life... I can't put it too much in my life... But at the same time, i wish that there will be some girls who can show care and concern to me... I'm a human after all... No matter how strong i might seem to be, i still need someone care and concern... And i'm always envy of other people... Cause they have a girlfriend by their side and they are so happily together... While me, i'm all alone... But its alright, i don wish to think too much either... Jux hope that someone really shows care and concern for me, and not jux to ask me for motive or to used me for something...

My test ends at 10am later on and i have so much free time... And i don even know what to do next... But i'm meeting jasmine later on at 12:30pm ba if i am not wrong... Juz to pass her something and i leave le... Then i have nothing to do... Maybe meet my friends at tampines and slack ba... I'm not sure either... Anyway, those who post tag to me, i would like to thank u all for yr concern and care... I juz wish to know who is the person who write to me and care for me after my gf and i have break up... Anyway, thx for yr care & concern... I'm alright and i'll always be strong in mental... Alright le, i shall post again tomorrow, or maybe later on if anythings special happens...

Not A Very Good Day Today...

2007-06-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today, i'm not feeling quite good in mood...

Although i did smile with my friends and go out for dinner and shopping with one of my friends who is buying a bag for his gf, but actually i'm not feeling happy at all... All i wish for is that my gf could give us personal time together... But, nvm...

I will jux accept what it is...

Sometimes i think why can't our relationship made known to people outside... Is it wrong for us to be together?... Or is it that i am too ashamed to let other people to know that she have a bf who is me?... Am i so worthless in my gf eyes?... I don't wish to think too much about it either...

Anyway, today my common test is quite easy, complete it in 35mins only... And i am quite confident in tomorrow's paper as well... Wish me all the best...

I might be feeling disappointed right now, even sad... But that doesn't stop me from caring and concerning about u... In fact, i still show u the same amount of love... This kind of feelings never change unless u don't want me anymore... Don't eat too much heaty food... Must be obedient ok, dear?... Forget what have happen today, and try to drink more water... x33 Jasmine Ng...

Shall post again tomorrow... Tired from today event... Shall rest le... take care...

Headache Man... Fainted Soon...

2007-06-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

What a headache today...

Cause today test i have memorise all the things have should be learned and come out in the test, but in the end when i am taking the test, almost all the things i have memorise i forget... And this is such a headache... i force myself to remember all the things but only some of them i remember... Lets hope that i will not fail for this test for this module as well as other module...

I miss my dear dear today also... Donno how she is doing today... Cause she is sick and this let me become more worried for her... Some more she don have any medicine with her... Luckily tomorrow i'm meeting her so i can bring some medicine to her... If not donno when her sick will recover... However she doesn't seem like to have medicine... but nvm, i got my own ways to let her have those medicine... hehe, be careful wor dear, cause yr baby is on his way to let u eat medicine le wor, hahaha.... Lol, lame....

Alright, go back to serious topic... Luckily after today's paper, from tomorrow onwards, those paper i'm taking will be quite easy for me cause i know how to do those module and its one of my best... However, i will still remember to do my own revision de... Wish me good luck... And all the best to my test...

Anyway, thx ppl for tagging me... All the best for the things u all are doing...

Alright, i shall post again tomorrow, today kinda of over stressed over my test...

And, sincerely, i love u dear, and i will never leave u alone anymore... Got anything must let me know, I will always stay by yr side... I will always be yr pillar of support... I x33 Jasmine Ng...

First day of common test today...

2007-06-25T09:01:00.000+08:00

Today is my first day of common test today.... which will held later on at 4:30pm...

Today gonna be my tough paper cause i am poor in mathematics since young... Hope i can pass in the this paper...

I'm suppose to wake up in the morning very early like 3am like that to revise my maths... But i'm not able to wake up cause am really tired... Then later on meeting my dear at last le... Didn't see her for days le... The first thing i gonna do when i see her is to hug her... hehe... Hope she is doing fine in school right now... And right now, my head is still cracking the mathematics questions... Having a big headache now...

And Dear, don't think too much of things and stress which is happening around u all at once, remember that yr not alone cause i will always be by yr side helping u and supporting u all the way... I love You, this is not only words that i say using my mouth, but also promises that i will always be yr guardian angel...

Ok le, i shall post again tomorrow... And thx for the tag everyone who have tagged me...

Today is my first day to post...

2007-06-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

Hmm, today is my first post in my blog...
Today have went out with my bros who i know them for around since i am primary 4 ba...
Having extreme stress these few days cause tomorrow will be my first common test... And what more worst is that the module i am having tomorrow is mathematics... This is problematic to me... Haiz... But no choice, still have to face it no matter wat...

I miss my dear alot these days... Can't really see her these days... Hope she is doing all well at home... Tomorrow her school also reopen, and i have a feelings that she doesn't seem to like the school reopen tomorrow... Hehe, but no choice she still have to go ba...

Hope to see her tomorrow before i go to school... I miss her alot... I don know how to use words to convey what i am feeling... Hmm, all the best to my common test tomorrow too...
Shall post again tomorrow...

2007-06-24T12:15:00.000+08:00

MY FIRST POST! [=